Summary
Rachel Pille is a geeky 14 year old, and she has fallen under the spell of Jason Mobey,and she feels that she needs to change for him...
Does she really need change? Or is she perfect?
Chapter 1
[Sorry the chapters are short]
"He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said, marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone, I love you and thats all I really know..." I sang, whilst getting ready. I thought to myself, I wish I had some one like that, the one, the one I love. But that is NEVER ever going to happen. Meet me, Rachel, 14, Geek, loner and just simply depressed. Firstly, reasons why I am a geek, I wear ugly glasses, I get 100 marks on every test and people just call me a geek. Secondly, why I am a Loner, I have only 1 friend (who is my only best friend , I have never had a boyfriend and only Georgia and my family speak to me, and finally why I am depressed, I like this boy, but you see he is just amazing, but I doubt anyone would go out with a geeky 14 year old girl who is U.G.L.Y
Chapter 2
His name is Jason Mobey, 15 year old Sex god, and he is rare, because he knows math and is mega hot. But guys like him, never fall for a girl like me. This is the equation of me, oh my god I cant believe I just said equation, now I am a geek, but here is the sum of me: UGLY + GEEK, = ME. I know this is really movie clichéd, but it is true, you see. I have never fancied a guy before because the only guys I see are the geeky nerds and my family, and who would fancy them?
Chapter 3
"I hate my glasses, they are so out of date, but my old fashioned mom wont buy anything that is more than $40!" I complained to Georgia, my only bestfriend, "Rach, don't be hard on yourself, they look great!" She said, but I have known her for 6 years and she is holding a secret "C'mon spill, I know you hate these glasses, their awful aren't they?" I said "No, it's not the glasses. Your not going to like this, but... Jason, well I saw him making out with Macy Trevor." She said grimacing while waiting for my reaction, "I don't care, it's not like he is my boyfriend or like he even notices me, so it's no biggie Georgie" I said trying to hide all of my feelings. "It is a biggie, you like him, and he has to like you. With your long brunette hair and your looks, he has to" She said trying to comfort me, "But, Georgie, he doesn't like me, and NOTHING is going to change that"
Chapter 4
School the place I dread but I have to go so I grab my lunch of the counter and I walk to the bus stop. As soo as I get on the bus, it starts, the name calling and the agonizing wait to get out of this h//l hole. "Hey, Geek Freak? Can you do a sum for me?" shouted Lia, the head b//tch of New West High, "What has rabbit teeth and a pig's nose?" She asked, but I didn't want to hear the end of her sick joke but I can't stop her because I am helpless, but she says it anyway "YOU!" She shouted and laughed and everyone laughed with her, because if they didn't, she'll do the same to them. I hate this even more because my mom always says "Sticks and stones, Rach, you need to get a backbone love" But mom never gets it, no-one ever gets it.
Chapter 5
I get into the school halls and I see everyone staring at me, like I committed murder, so I try and be calm, but in the inside I am screaming "WHAT? WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME?" but I can never say anything, so when the bell goes for class, I rush to english, with Mrs powell, she is my favourite teacher, if I tell what's happening, she'll understand right? Of Course she'll understand... she HAS to understand, because then, who will I go to? No-one, and it'll eat me up inside and I'll never be able to be me anymore.
Chapter 6
"Rach, you've just got to let them be, and somehow , Lia will go away," Georgia said after English, "There is no need to get, Pathetic Powell in this," Thats what everyone calls Mrs Powell, but I don't think she is, but like I said no-one gets me, " she would just let it out, in the staff room, then hell breaks loose" "But Georgie, don't you see, I have to let it out somehow it's killing me" I said, trying to act tough, but in the inside, I am slowly breaking down, in pieces, and trying to get away from it all, but thats the problem, I can't.
Chapter 7
I am not the girl who cuts when she gets bullied, but other people do and I can't be one of them, I always think that there's light some where in this darkness, but every time, there is none there. I am trying to find that light in people, books and sites, but the only person that keeps me looking for that light, is Jason Mobey, thats why I was so crushed when Georgia told me he has a girlfriend and now I don't know what to do to keep me searching for that light.
Chapter 8
I look at my laptop, trying to decide whether to check it or not, one part of me is saying "C'mon check it, nothing is going to be bad on there. The other part of me is saying "Don't check it, Lia is only going to bring you down". I go with the first one and as soon as I am logged in, I knew it was a bad decision, and I knew it was only going to bring me down, but I had to find out WHY? Why they do this, not punch you in the face, but it feels like a punch in the heart, and all you want to do is cry and cry.
Chapter 9
I found out why everybody was staring at me, Lia had put up a picture of me as a, Rabig (Rabbit and Pig) Rabbit teeth and ears and a Pigs nose and body, and to replace my glasses she has but the words "I am a... B//tch, cr//phead, rabbit, bunny, pig" and words I dare not mention, as I scroll down, I was about to write a comment saying "Rabbits are bunnies" But as I got look through the comments, I see Georgia's name and her comment was "Ahem... Lia one things first you little B//tch and secondly... Rabbits are bunnies, same species, different age. Maybe you should concentrate in class more, instead of chatting up boys?"
Chapter 10
I smiled and reached for my phone to text her thanks, but just before I got to the phone, it vibrated, I picked it up and the message read "I saw what your little brat of a friend said to you, I bet you feel happy now don't you? But that is not going to last long, just so you know go to my profile and facebook, then you'll feel sad for sure. FROM LIA" and I clicked on her profile quickly then there it was, the thing that would ruin my happiness forever it read, "Lia Cecilia and Jason Mobey are now in a relationship"
Chapter 11
I walked into school, trying to be brave, but I felt like breaking down, right there and then, but I had to be brave. People were laughing, smirking and sniggering, and I can't do a thing, I feel so helpless. But now I know that Lia has one she took away the person who keeps me searching for the light, now he is just the darkness, he is nothing to me anymore, he can't be because he is with that b//tch of a girl. I know people tell me that he didn't know I even existed but I felt like he did, like he knew me somehow, so thats over know, I need to focus on something different.
Chapter 12
Georgia came rushing over to me on my way to my locker, after class. "Rach! I am so sorry, I -" Georgia started to say, "Georgie, it's not your fault Lia, is a b//tch, but thanks for the comment and I am fine really" I smiled at her, again trying to hide my feelings "No, Rachel you are not fine, and guess what I heard?" She said looking excited "What?" I said eagerly "Lia, got Jason to go out with her because she needed the mid-term answers, so when mid-term comes, he is ALL yours!" she said, and now no-one can bring me down anymore. But maybe, just maybe, it's all lies, and my heart would be broken again.
Chapter 13
I spent all day trying to figure out a way to get Jason's attention, but that didn't work, so as I got home , I had an idea, change, change myself, become a whole new me, no glasses, and my teeth will be fine, and my body will be slim but it will take a couple of months to do it though, but it will be worth it, I will be Jason's girlfriend and I am sure of it. So all I have to do now is to go and ask mom, if I can have contacts. Then I am completed, a new me, I can be a new girl, people want to go out with me, I can be a new person...
Chapter 14
"Mom, please?" "No Rachel Helena Pile! I have already said anything under $40 you can have! Do you have any idea how much yearly contact lenses are?" "But, Mom! I don't want yearly I want monthly, they only cost $25" I shouted, desperately wanting Mom to understand, that I can't be the way I am. "No, and thats it!" "I HATE YOU! WHY WON'T YOU LET ME BE DIFFERENT I WISH YOU WEREN'T MY MOM! I WISH YOU DIED!" I shouted, and thats a thing that I wish I had never said, and I can't take that back. I wish I had never seen mom's face after I said that.
Chapter 15
I ran out of the door to Georgia's and told her what had happened, "Rach, why would you even think about changing yourself?" she said, trying to figure out stuff, like me "I only wanted contacts Georgie, nothing else" I said Lying to my best friend, which I never thought I would do. "Okay Rach, but why would you do that, why would you shout at your Mom?" Georgia said, equally as confused as me "It was just the heat of the moment, I just... I just wanted to get it out, I needed to get all my frustration out, I was meant to do that at Lia, but instead I did it at Mom and now I feel awful" I cried, I really did mean it.
Chapter 16
"Rach, you need to go home now, you need to say sorry to your Mom and get things straight with her, she is probally thinking she is the worst Mother ever and she's not. But you have to tell her that it's Lia, because this can't go on forever, Ok?" Georgia said at the door "Yeah, I will Georgia, I promise" I said, but I have to break that promise because Mom will say "Stop being silly, Rachel, you have to stick up for yourself and be independent" I know I am independent but not when it comes to Lia, I can't help it, she is just a life wrecker and I do wish she would just dissapere but she doesn't, so I can't, and Mom doesn't understand AT ALL, and she won't EVER understand.
Chapter 17
I opened the door to my house, and every where was silent, all I could hear were the faint sobs of Mom, I thought, I was going to run out the house, but I heard Georgia's voice in my head and she was saying "Pull yourself together Girl, be a woman!" So I went upstairs opened Mom's door and saw her lying in her bed with tears streaming down her face, I have never seen her this way, wait I have, the day Sarah died, My sister but I can't talk about that. So I sit on the edge of the bed and say "Mom I am so sorry, I didn't mean it, it's.... it's just my hormones," I lied, once again, I didn't want to, but I had to. "You see Mom, I am just so frustra-"I started to say, and then I felt this force on my face and then relized who it was Mom, "Oh, Rachel I am so... so sorry!" she started to sob, but I ran out of her room, ran downstairs and slammed the front door.
Chapter 18
I ran out of the house, I ran until I could only hear my heartbeat. I looked back, to see where I was, and in that second I slapped against someone. I looked up to find, Jason, the one person, I Didn't want to see. "Rachel right?" He said, I was speechless for a second but I finally got out "Yeah, and your Jason?" I said trying to hide my 3 year old crush on him "Yeah, so why were you running?" He said, seriously after 3 years of not knowing I exist, he suddenly has an interest in me? "Umm, just exercising, that's all, anyway why are you here? I thought you lived south?" I said. Confused and overwhelmed he, even knew me.
Chapter 19
Then I suddenly got it, Lia lives 5 blocks down from Georgia, he's going to her, maybe Lia truly likes him, "I was actually looking for you, I need to ask you something" at the moment he said that, chills went up my spine, "Umm.. well it's embarrassing I want to say... umm I-Will you... do my homework for me?" I was devastated, but I had to get away, QUICKLY, "Yeah, bye" I rushed by him "Wait... I have another question" He said, it's probably going to say something like and can you do my exam? something stupid I bet "will you go out with me?" WOW, I did NOT expect that.
Chapter 20
I was stunned "You see Rachel, you're really really pretty, and you're not a complete b//tch like Lia, you're pure and I have kind of had a crush on you for 3 years" He suddenly blurted out, I have never in my life, felt beautiful. Though Jason made me feel beautiful. Then I didn't know what to say so I said "Umm... yeah" Then giggled and then Jason started giggling. Then he held me, lifted my chin up and kissed me. I thought,
I never had to change, I am perfect.
I never had to change, I am perfect.